Grateful
Happy New Year Friends!
I hope all of you are njoying the day exactly how you wish. I have a feeling 2009 is going to be great. I wrote this a few evenings ago. Just wanted to thank everyone for your support throughout life- especially the past year. The saying " To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world." Guess that's how I feel about all of you ( that goes for all of you silent lurkers out there too! ) I know you have been there cheering me on.
As the New Year approached, I wanted to start out in a clean, organized office. Somehow clutter attracts itself to the corner of the house where no one can see. As I started to dismantle everything, I realized I had inadvertently made an ‘altar’ to my cancer. All the cards, mementos, words of encouragement, special gifts friends had sent along the way. Everything was piled and displayed like a homage to this time in my life. I cried. . . .I cried like I haven’t cried in a long time and then I put it away. It’s gone . The cards, the gifts and the cancer. And when I looked down to take a drink of my tea I noticed the saying on the mug my daughter gave me for Christmas. “just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly” I cried some more. It’s time. I’m ready to move on, yet I have no idea what the future holds.
It’s late here – later where most of my friends and family are, but I suddenly had this urge to call all the people who ‘showed up’ in my life and thank them. But words can not describe the kind of gratitude I have for every note, every post, every phone call, everything. . . deep and powerful and I don’t want to forget those feelings. I mean- people I barely knew helped me carry this cross- how do I even begin to tell them how they saved a life? I started to write my annual New Years letter today. In my mind I deemed it the ‘year of the lemon’ but as I write this now I think it was the ‘year of strength’. It was the year my family grew up and grew closer than ever before. It was the year I found strength I didn’t know I had. It was the year my faith in people grew stronger and my faith in God and the way the Universe works reached a new level. I don’t know where to go from here, but I’m pretty sure God will show me the way.
I hope all of you are njoying the day exactly how you wish. I have a feeling 2009 is going to be great. I wrote this a few evenings ago. Just wanted to thank everyone for your support throughout life- especially the past year. The saying " To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world." Guess that's how I feel about all of you ( that goes for all of you silent lurkers out there too! ) I know you have been there cheering me on.
As the New Year approached, I wanted to start out in a clean, organized office. Somehow clutter attracts itself to the corner of the house where no one can see. As I started to dismantle everything, I realized I had inadvertently made an ‘altar’ to my cancer. All the cards, mementos, words of encouragement, special gifts friends had sent along the way. Everything was piled and displayed like a homage to this time in my life. I cried. . . .I cried like I haven’t cried in a long time and then I put it away. It’s gone . The cards, the gifts and the cancer. And when I looked down to take a drink of my tea I noticed the saying on the mug my daughter gave me for Christmas. “just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly” I cried some more. It’s time. I’m ready to move on, yet I have no idea what the future holds.
It’s late here – later where most of my friends and family are, but I suddenly had this urge to call all the people who ‘showed up’ in my life and thank them. But words can not describe the kind of gratitude I have for every note, every post, every phone call, everything. . . deep and powerful and I don’t want to forget those feelings. I mean- people I barely knew helped me carry this cross- how do I even begin to tell them how they saved a life? I started to write my annual New Years letter today. In my mind I deemed it the ‘year of the lemon’ but as I write this now I think it was the ‘year of strength’. It was the year my family grew up and grew closer than ever before. It was the year I found strength I didn’t know I had. It was the year my faith in people grew stronger and my faith in God and the way the Universe works reached a new level. I don’t know where to go from here, but I’m pretty sure God will show me the way.
Angella,
What a beautiful and heartfelt thank you note. But, did it ever occur to you that maybe we should be thanking you? I have told you this before, but I want to tell you again that your blog with its openness and honesty meant the world to me this past year. You always helped me to put my life in perspective. So Angella it is my turn to thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are very special and I am so proud to call you my friend.
I wish you the best in 2009!
Love & XXOO, Wendy
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I'm on, I am so excited! Now that it is all over and done with....(thank God) I am so happy to be reading and writing this. Wow, this is all so cool. I can't wait to read all of the stuff I have missed. I already saw the picture of you and the family, I love your hair! Do you know that you are such an inspiration to so many people??? I know you feel grateful for the strength and good things that came out of a terrible situation. But good things only came out of that nightmare because you enabled them to....Never forget how strong you are
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Gina
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Spoken from the love of a true sister. From one toughie to another. . .I love you!
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