I forgot for a minute that everything is exactly the way it supposed to be at this moment.  I forgot for a minute that I am exactly where I need to be.  I forgot for a minute, but now I remember.  Truth be told, I got the drains out of my sides on Friday and I feel like a new person. I feel like I have the strength inside me to build a new life. It's a small step, but it's a step.  I spent a total of 15 minutes on the doctor's office on Friday, but in those 15 minutes, so much happened.  I got my confidence back.  I wanted to thank my doctor - not just because he took the drains out,  but he let me know it was o.k. to grieve, to be sad and only I would know when the right time for my husband to see me would be. I barely know this man, but those few words validated my feelings. It gave me permission to be sad and then get over it.
 
 I wanted to thank my friend Sandy who wrote 'the monkey mind tells us we should 'be this' or 'do that' ' It reminded me that everything is exactly the way it should be right now and just as the ebb and flow of life brought on some seemingly stormy weather - it's just a phase.  The only person in charge of turning the tide is me.