Feeling Better Now
I tried to prepare myself for what the effects of the ‘new’ treatment ( Taxol ) were going to be like. By Friday I thought I was going to get off easy. But, by Saturday the chemo demons were out to get me. I won’t bore you with the details, but let’s just say it seriously kicked my butt. Today is much better. I feel like I am among the living.
Saturday was also a day of overwhelming gratitude. There is a little place called the Happily Ever After League that gives support to moms with cancer. I thought it would be a great place to share my new breast care recovery class so I wanted to check it out. It was funny I thought "Here I am thinking I was coming here to potentially share my class, and I left new Arbonne skin care products, a gratitude journal and gift cards." All donated through this wonderful foundation. I learned to graciously just say ‘Thank you’.
Thinking I was going to feel ‘all better’ by Monday, I planned a lunch date with a friend. I kept the lunch plans, but soon after I got there I realized I should have stayed home. Anyway, long story short, after an episode where I thought I was going to pass out a man approached us and said “ I saw you earlier and I just felt compelled to tell you that ‘Everything is going to be alright-you are going to be fine’. Normally, I might take offense to this , I mean how does this guy even know what’s going on? But this was different. I really think he felt compelled to come back and tell me this. I can’t really explain it, but it was very different than the normal person who was trying to console me and say ‘ You are going to be all right’. This guy was a normal looking business guy that happened to be having his lunch and got a nudge from an angel to let me know I was being taken care of. It was very surreal and even more touching as I am able to sit here and think about what really happened. Even in the midst of all my miserable sickness, there are lots of angels around me. God has a plan for me.
What an awesome experience. An angel with a face spoke to you. You are
being taken care of.
love,
Mom
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I know- it was really a comfort in a weird way. The guy only said 2 sentences and yet it spoke volumes.
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Angella, So happy you are up to blogging. I am so glad that I got to see you before your treatment. Dodie says hi. I am off to Bend tomorrow, but I will let you know when I will be back. I am thinking of you and wishing many more angels in your life.
XXOO, Wendy
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I am so glad you got to come back to the sunshine and get some perspective. It was great seeing you- I'm glad you had a good trip!
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Hello - Just wanted you to know I think about you all the time and know that you're hanging in there. Also wanted you to know I'm counting the days until you return. Doing Pilates from a DVD just isn't the same
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Awwww! Thanks Connie- Knowing you - I know you are keeping up and doing a great job on your own. Believe me, I can't wait to get back too! Tell all the Trilogy Ladies I say 'Hello!'
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Hi My Girl!
Was just thinking about you this morning and it's too early to call. I had a dream about you last night - you had long, flowing blond hair.
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Hmm.. . .Blond hair huh? I guess I could try it out with a new wig. I just found some pictures fom Chicago last night. It was Summer so of course I remember good times, but I do remember that bitter cold- I can't wait for you to visit me and the Sunshine too! Not long now- Love you!
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