I Was Taking a Vacation From Cancer
I wanted to take a vacation from cancer- just for a few days. Forget about my treatments or better yet, the side effect s of my treatments, but my body had a different idea. We booked this trip to Whistler many months ago, long before I knew I had cancer. Upon learning the diagnosis – my standard question was “ Can I still go to Whistler for Christmas?” Then, the more things came up, it became a quest. “ I AM going to Whistler for Christmas” and so it was. Punctured lung, chemo ridden and stress aside, we had made it to Whistler. We arrived in the early afternoon, so we made it down to the Coca Cola Inner Tube Park. I was exhausted just from the walk there. Even so, we had a great time- they even have a ‘magic carpet’ that takes you back up the hill so you don’t have to walk. Besides being winded, my back and hips were screaming. I kept thinking to myself “How am I going to go snowboarding like this?” I wanted SO, SO desperately to go snowboarding, but my body just wasn’t going to co-operate. The last thing I needed was to get injured and interrupt my chemo treatments. I decided not to go. Sending my husband and son off today on the slopes was extremely disappointing.
I kept trying to focus on the GOOD things of the day, like the massages my daughter and I were getting later in the day or the beautiful walk in winter wonderland. But in the back of my head, I kept thinking “ Cancer beat you on this one” .
Tomorrow, I play by my rules. I might not be able to go snowboarding, but I’ll be
zip- trekking from tree to tree with my teenage daughter, starring adventure in the face. Take that cancer- I needed a massage anyway!
Angie,
Good for you !! You're picture looks
like you are standing in a perfect winter wonderland. Lucky you.
Merry Christmas to you All
Love Mom
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Angie,
We just got home from Xmas at moms (your Aunt Connie's) & your mom was talking about your website so I thought I would check it out, but first I hope you & your family are having a fabulous vacation & holiday (I checked out the website--very cool place where you're at!) Next, I must say that all the blogs are unique, powerful & not just insightful, but have made me take a good look at myself, direction of life & the values of your inner gifts that God gives us---THANK YOU!!
Your mom is right---write a book girl! You're a very gifted writer!!! I do think this whole cancer thing sucks to no end & honestly not sure what to say except...I'm thinking about you & sending some positive vibes your way that you conquer the beast & move on!
I know as cousins we really don't know eachother except through what family tells us about the lives of everyone, but somehow, someway, I have found out a lot about you just by reading all this. Aunt Sharon always has something good to say about you, the kids and you were a topic of discussion tonight as we sat and did the wonderful German thing we do----stuff ourselves on all the appetizers, dinner & then totally puff ourselves to be Extreme eaters with all the deserts! This is truly a "Why do we do this?" question. Something I've wondered about our family for years! LOL!!
Anywho...you all were in our thoughts tonight & yes it would be nice to have you back here at Xmas but you do deserve a vacation from all the stuff! By the way, leave it to your sister Gina & John & Laura to bring the best gifts for the entire family, which we sat around & played with for 45 minutes, laughing until we had tears in our eyes....A fart master & burb master toy! (It was actually for Tyler & Owen, go figure!)
Well, sorry to write so much, but I wanted to touch base, let you know we are all behind you & you're being kept in many prayers (as your mom says, many who don't know you are praying for you) and that I will keep up with you on your awesome site! Keep hanging tough you Inner Tough Girl!
Love & Hugs, from your midwest family who are always in the cold Ohio--lol!
Lisa, Dolug, Christina, Forrest
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Lisa,
It means so much to me that you visited and commented on my blog. It is great to hear from you. Your right about getting the 'updates' through mom- I always try to keep up on you and Laura- but it's not the same when it comes from a 3rd party.
I have often thought that about the eating thing too- but it's not just us- if the majority of America. O.k- maybe it got worse when Nana guilted us into eating more- but I have to tell you- it's a tough mindset to reprogram. It's one thing I am trying to work on.
Of course Gina and Laura brought the farting thing- I would expect nothing less- why are farts still so funny no matter how old you get?
You should neve be sorry for writing so much- I LOVE it and I love to hear how everything is going for you guys- I hope you will write more again sometime.
I am writing from the airport, where in a few hours I wil be back from my vacation and back to fighting cancer- I have another treatment on Thursday- Hope you guys had a great Christmas- I think about you often- hoping you are all leading the lives you had planned for youselves.
Stay in touch!
Love,
Angella
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