What's With The Name?
I consider myself to be tough - when I need to be. I knew early on in this deal that if I was going to get through this, I need to get my *inner tough girl* on. The Inner Tough Girl is the part inside you that stands up and fights. It's the voice inside your head that says 'Do one more! or Go an extra minute' The part that doesn't stay in self pity very long and refuses to be a victim of ANYTHING- let alone cancer.
Some mornings I wake up and place a star on the back of my hand. My kids used to ask "What's the star for?" and I tell them "It's a reminder to be fabulous!"
Some mornings I wake up and place a star on the back of my hand. My kids used to ask "What's the star for?" and I tell them "It's a reminder to be fabulous!"
No Apologies
So, the Inner Tough Girl in me will not apologize for an occasional *F* bomb or a rant here and there. Cancer is tough - I need to be tougher.
Nor will I apologize to the person next to me on the treadmill yesterday when my ipod was too loud and between my huffs were occasional sobs because in this crazy time of my life when I have no control - this was one thing I could control.
The ITG will not apologize for being silly and having fun even when I might look like a loser. I bought a coloring book and crayons the other day and colored for the first time in years. I missed the smell of new crayons.
The Inner Tough Girl in me also knows that being tough sometimes means being able to cry and let it go- then get back on the horse and *pony up*. It's not about how many times you fall - it's about how many times you pick yourself up. That's tough.
Okay Angella, you have inspired me to a first--I've never blogged before. I'm not going to say silly sappy things-we tough girls need to stick together, just know I will keep in touch regularly because I love you and miss that our relationship got interrupted. You will stay in my prayers and I'll try to come up with a laugh or two when needed. I love the new look, you've always been beautiful anyways-inside as well as out! Let me know when you feel like getting together for coffee, complaining or shopping- I'm up for all or anything that helps. I've missed you.
Sharon
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Sharon- I have missed you too- remember that time I saw you at Safeway around Thanksgiving time and I cried because I missed you?????That's how much I miss you- I thought of you when I went to Scooters for coffee- I have lot's of time now- let's get together!
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Hi Angella,
I am thinking of you and I know you will get through this as I did. I just celebrated 3 years as a survivor. I am just a few steps away if you need me. Please come sit and visit and cry, color, or laugh whenever you want. I would love to help in anyway, it will not be easy some days but there will be an end to the madness that now is part of your life. Stay strong!!!
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WOW, WHAT A "TOUGH GIRL" YOU ARE.
IF THERE WERE A WISH FOR ALL WOMEN
TO HAVE, I WOULD WISH FOR THEM TO BE JUST LIKE YOU AND HAVE YOUR ATTITUDE
AND OUTLOOK....WHETHER THEY HAD CANCER
OR NOT.YES, IT'S HARD TO "PONY UP"
BUT THAT IS WHERE THE STERENGTH COMES
FROM WITHIN A PERSON.
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